Wheat Field with Cypresses by Vincent Van Gogh
Do not tell everyone your story. You will only end up feeling more rejected. People cannot give you what you long for in your heart. The more you expect from people's response to your experience of abandonment, the more you will feel exposed to ridicule.
If ever someone tries to convince you that there is only one path to success, just remind yourself that Miuccia Prada earned a PhD in political science, then became a mime, then a member of the Italian communist party, then a women's rights activist, then became one of the world's most iconic designers, then opened an art gallery, and is now the ninth richest woman in the world.
Isn't it cool that one day you're going to have little people running around your house that will be half you and have the person you love?
Maybe it's brave to quit your job to go paint in Peru for a year, but it's also brace to work two jobs to help pay for your mom's medical bills. It's smart to stay at the law firm until your loans are paid off. It's OK to only tolerate your job but love your hobbies, because as soon as your passions are turned into careers, you risk turning love into work.
So you don't love your job-who gives a shit?
Are you happy with yourself? Are you happy with the way you treat people? Are you happy with your life?
Vincent Van Gogh used to eat yellow paint because he thought it would get the happiness inside him. Many people thought he was mad and stupid for doing so because the paint was toxic, never mind that it was obvious that eating paint couldn't possibly have any direct correlation to one's happiness, but I never saw that. If you were so unhappy that even the maddest ideas could possibly work, like painting the walls of your internal organs yellow, then you are going to do it. It's really no different than falling in love or taking drugs. There is a greater risk of getting your heart broken or overdosing, but people still do it everyday because there was always that chance it could make things better. Everyone has their yellow paint.